stage one!!!

so, i was supposed to have an appointment on tuesday with the specialist regarding my test results from scans and blood etc and to find out the plan of action for beating this stupid thing..

Anyway I get a phone call from my Macmillan nurse who tells me my appointments been brought forward to Monday at a different hospital. This ones apparently better because it treats all young people with Germ Cell Tumours. Which I suppose is good because I won't feel odd or stupid because everyone is in the same boat, plus Ill be getting the best treatment. 

I was scared at first because I thought they'd changed the venue and date earlier because it was bad news.. god this is such a scary time, waiting around to be told bad stuff, its awful.

At the moment I just want to know the treatment dates and to be getting on with it, not the in's and out's off wats 'abnormal' about me. arrghh... i cnt wait to start treatment as strange as it sounds.. these cells are in me destroying my ovaries.. who know wat else theyve latched on to, hopefully theyve stayed in one place and one place only!